Did I Ever Really Exist? Character Analysis

Hey, I'm Blanche. Awhile ago I thought I existed. I believed that I too was apart of this earth and had a place in the human race. I recall having a family and friends but now that all these objects are gone, I start to wonder if they ever did exist. My family lost Belle Reve, the plantation me and Stella grew up on, so naturally I decided to try to relocate and move in with Stella, my closest family. It felt like such a wonderful plan when I first thought it up but now that I reflect upon it, it was actually my biggest mistake. Before I went there I was happy. No actually, that's a lie. Before I went to Stella's I was content. Too many terrible occurrences and situations happened while I was staying with my sister. I remember moving in, and arguing with Stanley. I also remember how violent he got during one of his poker games. The single night that stands out in my mind with the most vivid light can also be categorized as the worst night of my life. Stanley raped me. He was angry and he took advantage of his wife's sister. He was wrong. I told Stella. I warned her so many times in numerous ways but she loves that atrocious man. She cares for that animal. This is the part of my life that is lost to me. I distinctly remember doctors knocking on the door and taking me to this . . . place. Whether or not I'm still in that place I do not know. Whether or not I'm alive or dead I do not know. Whether or not I was ever alive, I do not know.